"Oh God my God, I cry out, Your beloved needs You now."

Sometimes life can be so gut-wrenching hard! It can be so overwhelming and discouraging and frustrating! Is that enough adjectives to describe these moments of disappointment?!
Of who you might ask!?
Of myself mostly. Others also sometimes but at the end of the day I cannot change others but I can change myself! So why don't I?
Why do I stand in this complacency? Why do I revel in laziness and  dejectedness? Is that even a word?
I look at myself in the mirror and I wonder what is wrong with me sometimes? I make all the goals and have all these dreams that I know God has given me but what so I do with them?
I sit on my couch  and think about the possibilities and make plans but then I fail to do anything with them! I don't make the changes I so wish to see!
God I so desperately wish I gave you my all in everything and I am so sorry that I so often fail! Forgive me for being less than my best.

God, you know the desires of my heart and I know them too! Please help me to live for you, love for you and sacrifice for you! I love you!

I'm back

All my life, for as long as I remember, I have been a writer. But it seems at times, I go through these “writer’s block” moments where I go long periods of times in silence. And I am not certain what influences that, why I feel the need to hide, but as I am trying to change, to be the best version of myself, I am noticing things that need to change.

I believe as a follower of Christ, that we should empower. So I am going to begin being more aware and trying to write more uplifting, encouraging things that can maybe empower someone else; to be the best version of themselves, to follow Christ, to live a life worth living, to have that self-confidence they so desperately need. Whatever it may be that they are needing empowerment for, I hope that maybe God can use my words to do that.

I was reading a passage of scripture today, and I would like to share that here:

“29 Don’t use foul or abusive language. Let everything you say be good and helpful, so that your words will be an encouragement to those who hear them. 30 And do not bring sorrow to God’s Holy Spirit by the way you live. Remember, he has identified you as his own, guaranteeing that you will be saved on the day of redemption. 31 Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of evil behavior. 32 Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you.” –Ephesians 4:29-32

I think so often as humans we focus on ourselves and be selfish and desire only what we want and therefore we hold onto bitterness, anger, resentment, and we don’t forgive and we let that feast on our hearts until we lash out and say harsh, cruel words that tear down another person, when in fact, especially as believers in Christ, we should be speaking words of encouragement, love, conviction.

I think people have forgotten who they are, where they have come from and the promise they have in Christ. I think if people could hold onto these truths that they would walk in love, kindness, forgiveness, and encouragement, rather than continually having to put people down in order to feel better about themselves.

These are just my thoughts, observations, and I am not trying to condemn anyone because condemnation is not of God. I am trying to expose lies that we feed off of and let the truth set us free. And I am speaking in “we’s” and “us” because I am guilty of these same lies. No one is perfect, all we can do is seek to live perfectly as Christ did. So we are constantly open to the recognition of things we may not be doing right and willing to make the necessary changes to better ourselves so that we can be used by the Lord.

So on that note, I will leave you with a picture from Air1's Brenda Price that has some quotes that you can read and let sink in: