Tomorrow my second son will be 1 month old.
I am desperately trying to find a "normal" for our lives. My first son will be 3 years old in December and he is definitely struggling with this less attention thing. He loves his little brother but he acts out when I have to give him attention.
I am still trying to get sleep, which isn't happening very successfully.
I do somewhat feel as though I am a failure as a mother.
I need to do better.
I want to do better.
But I feel as though I don't.
Now maybe that is just a feeling, maybe not.
Either way, I don't want to be stuck.
And I definitely don't want to be so lazy that I miss out on being the best I can be.
I feel this pressure from different angles.
"Oh, he should be potty-trained by now."
"He should be able to do this, or say that, or recognize that.."
"He shouldn't be acting that way.."
Blah blah blah.
I respectfully disagree.
All children learn at different times and in different ways. No two children are alike.
And I am not going to feel like a bad parent just because someone else thinks it should be a certain way.
I know I can do better and I am trying to do just that but that is all I can do.
And that should be enough. Right?
I have beautiful children. I love them very much.
They are uniquely and fearfully made.
Being a mom is not always easy.
But it is the best gift from God I could ask for.
There is a balance I am trying to find in it all and although I have not found it just yet, it's okay.
It is not the end of the world.
So I apologize if I stay in my pajamas some days.
I apologize if the dishes do not always get done right away.
I am sorry if my house is not spotless.
And I am sorry if my son does not always listen (He is only 2 after all).
I am busy trying to love & play with my children.
Is that okay?
I hope so.
"Children are a gift from the Lord; they are a reward from Him." -Psalm 127:3 NLT
"Direct your children onto the right path, and when they are older, they will not leave it." Proverbs 22:6 NLT
