My beloved Peruvians

I finally talked to them.
And I almost teared up when all the audio stuff was not working.
We started doing webcam but only they could see me.
Then Kevin came and tried to fix it. But since it was not working, he brought Yhonson and Gerson into his room and let them talk to me on Skype while Betty tried talking to me on Maribel's msn.
I showed them my room and my house and outside of my house. But the boys only wanted talk in spanish so Kevin was translating.
But Yhonson said "Hola Ratita" and it made me smile from ear to ear!
And Betty told me "que es mi amiga mejor ratita"
So after the boys went to eat, Betty and I did webcam, we just had to type instead of talk. Only for a few minutes and then BETZABE was on the screen and I was like awww! And Gerson and Yhonson were with her. And I showed them my nieces and nephew and they saw my necklace and Yhonson asked me if "mi novio" gave it to me! I said I do not have a boyfriend! ha ha! And Maribel said that Yhonson had a girlfriend and he was like noooooooooooo!
And then she said, well he is in love with a girl, that is why he does not study! And I laughed of course and he was like nooooooooo! And I was like, Yhonson, you do not need to have a girl friend and you need to do your school work, ha ha!
They were sending me all those silly winks on msn messenger and I was laughing hysterically.
And I was sending them too. They have cool different one's that are in spanish.
But then their webcam stopped and they had to go back to their house so Maribel and I chatted for a few. They have a new girl named Carol and she is 14 years old.
And she said that God's really blessing them at the orphanage. And that they are praying for more help with the houses and for the kids to be able to go to a summer camp. And she asked us to help pray too. And to pray about presents for the kids at christmas time. A nurse volunteer is going to be there next week.
And she told me that I have really helped a lot, especially with the older kids and that touched my heart! And just so you know, Yhonson asked about both you Emily and Aimee.
If it would have been better with audio and all, I am sure others would have said hello but it just was not the best. Much more difficult typing the whole time.
Anyway, we are supposed to try again on Saturday when the audio is fixed.
I knew you'd want to hear about my chat!

Today

Senior paper is a 40 page paper with 45 sources and the class is called Senior Paper. So the whole grade is based off of the paper. No bueno. It is due in about 5 weeks and I have gotten nowhere. I know I can do it but I am having a hard time getting the inspiration I need to write it. Please pray for me, ha ha.
Minnesota is great.
The dream I had brought about so much thought provoking and really looking into myself.
I have so much admiration and respect for Nicole and her family. I mean they are not perfect by any means, because no one is. But their family is so devoted to the Lord. They each have their own unique personalities that brings in their own dynamics and I just love being able to be a part of the family for a week once a year. It gives me the opportunity to see where they have grown in one years time.

I am in Minnesota.
It is cold.
The worship at church has been amazing.
The time with the family is wonderful, perfect in every way.
Tomorrow begins the journey of Senior Paper, boo!

Fall Break!

It is finally here.
After my class tomorrow I am off to Minnesota to visit one of my best and dearest friends!
It will be crisp and cold. But I don't care. As long as I am with my friends, whom I call my family, because they are a part of my family! It is going to be a great week.
I must work on my senior paper while there. boo.
I went to the doctor today. I had some problems. I have a bug from Peru. So I am on antibiotics and that is supposed to kick it. If it does not, then we have more serious problems. So we're believing for the bug, ha ha. I also got information on the other stuff I need to take care of before the end of the semester, health-wise. So that was good.
My niece, who is 3, fractured the bone above her elbow tonight. Poor thing.
My car is sitting in a parking lot and probably won't be used again for driving in.
I have to be up at 7 a.m. to go to school and I am just getting home from work, at midnight.
Oh the joys of life.
I pray blessings upon you =]

Confessions

I went to sleep at 11 and woke up at 7 a.m. and I felt like I was in Peru again :)

I have been so distracted by thoughts of my future, present, and past, it is ridiculous.

Not necessarily bad thoughts, just thoughts that are overwhelming my present life since I have so much to do and yet I am not taking care of getting those things done to the best of my ability because I am so distracted by thoughts. No bueno.

Fall Break is on Friday and I am beyond excited. I did not get to go to Minnesota last fall break on account of me being ridiculously sick! So I am super pumped about my trip this year because I will get to spend time with Nicole and her family one last time before I graduate. Traditions.

I am having more health problems these days. And I probably should be concerned and I think internally I am freaking out, but on the outside, I put a smile on my face and ignore the signals that are telling me I should probably go to the doctor. I just hate finding out what the results are. I don't like being sick. Especially when it could be serious things. I think some of it may be health stuff from returning from being out of the country. I need to figure out what places I can go to without insurance so that I can get these things taken care of, slay these dragons once and for all. Amen.

I've always wondered why I am so calm in the midst of pain, worry, concern, fear. But I guess it is because of the peace that surpasses all understanding that the Holy Spirit gives me.

I really don't have much to say.

Redeemed by the blood of the Lamb

Some days I want so desperately to defend my honor, to justify myself, to protect my reputation. It is like a fire burning within myself. But I know it is not necessary so I withhold the urge to give in when I see specific people who think they know the truth but are living under an assumption.
Some days I want answers so desperately to why people do certain things that can hurt a person so much, tearing their heart apart and bringing so much change into their lives. But then I remember that it is not necessary for now. If a person wants to honestly share why they did what they did or what they were thinking at the time, then they can do that but I do not need to seek anyone out and try to get answers. Because I am a whole person nonetheless.
What has happened throughout my life may have helped to define my character today but it does not define who I am. I choose to let things affect me the way that I do and I can choose to learn from my past and not let my past define my existence.
I am a whole person in Christ Jesus and as much as I want answers sometimes, I am complete nonetheless. God is my strong tower, my rock of salvation. And nothing can change that.

I miss...

I miss the constant wind because for once it felt like a touch of God.
And not a blistering cold wind.
I miss the children the most.
I miss how their faces light up when they see you. And the way they say your name. And how they attempt to talk to you, even with the language barrier. I miss the twinkling in their eyes as they soak up the love and attention you give them. I miss seeing them sing worship songs in church. I miss how they laugh. I miss the basketball, ha ha. I miss the hugs and how they intertwine their fingers into yours when walking, sitting, watching movies. But most of all I miss their hearts. They each individually have their own personalities. They each have something to offer to the world. And they each deserve to know how loved, important, and valuable they are.
I miss the relationships.
I met such amazing people while in Peru. People who have encouraged me in my faith and helped me to follow the path of the Lord. I miss them.
I miss the adventure.
All of life is an adventure really. It just depends how you look at it. But I Miss the Peruvian Adventure because I feel like it is where I should be. But in God's timing, right?
I miss a lot of things about Peru.